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Memories

Memories can haunt us. I was listening to a story on NPR’s StoryCorp recently and heard a tender conversation between an aged father who told his adult son that, all of his life, he regretted a moment when he had abusively beaten him in a moment of frustration. The son was moved by his father’s words and tried to help his dad put the memory in perspective. The father contacted NPR later and said that talking about the lingering regret had finally helped him put the memory to rest.

In this sense, memories can help us to deal with unresolved hurts. If we still have an opportunity to come to terms with the issue with someone we’ve harmed, a haunting memory can provide the incentive.

Yes, it’s also true that Jesus did warn about “looking back.” Using an agricultural word picture, he once said “No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God” (Luke 9:62). But in context, he was talking about a similar situation to what happened when Lot’s wife looked back (or lingered) rather than turning her back on Sodom. When it comes to turning from past relationships to follow Christ, second thoughts– can entangle us. In that case, memories of what we’re not sure we want to let go of can keep us from enjoying a new day.

But I’ve been thinking of another reason to dig around in the attic of our mind for old memories we’ve forgotten about. One time to do that is when we seem to be at a dead end with nothing but our fears closing in on us.

Over and over the Lord of Israel urged His people to face a present challenge by remembering how He had delivered them from the whip of Egypt. Over and over He urged them to find new courage by remembering the day they huddled together in terror, on the shores of the Read Sea, with the armies of a furious Pharaoh closing in on them. Repeatedly, He reminded his people to remember not only the miraculous deliverance that followed, but also how, one day at a time, for 40 years, He provided for their needs in the extreme conditions of a barren wilderness.

Memories of our own Pharaohs, Goliaths, and Philistines can be like pages from the history of the ways in which our God has shown himself a faithful Father. They can help us to take confidence in the thought that, up until now, our God has provided for us (1Samuel 7:12).


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  1. B Murphy says:

    Recently I ran into that “wall” wanting to draw closer to Jesus. I had to look back to move forward. I found a wounded soul that only the Lord could heal.

    The Lord has always made His presence known to me through all the rejection and pain that I suffered. It was agonizing to relive all of the memories. However, with lots of tears, prayer, bible study, and solitude we are finding our way through with the Holy Spirit.

    The rejection of my childhood caused a complete distrust in me that became a natural part of my personality. Only by the grace of God is my heart healing and trust returning to my once dead heart. Jesus suffered the greatest rejection. This is my strength.

    Please pray for all of us suffering from wounded souls.

  2. agapelife says:

    thanks B Murphy I am dealing with the same issues also. The fact is for many years, I find for myself, that this is every on going process. Like the son in the story I have made amends with my step father and tired with my mother. In fact like Mr. De Haan wrote, I some times must look back and remember what God has done up to now in my life so to move on with out regrets and trust in HIM. I regret that I for get sometimes, and must remind myself of how I came this far, it was by His grace each day.

    I do have question for you Mr. De Haan. Our there times when maybe we should just pray that God will heal a wound that one caused. I mean what if trying to heal my heart against someone I wronged could only cause them pain of them going through it all over again. Or do you see this as an excuse on my part not to talk to that person. We are separated by hundreds of miles, and haven’t really kept in touch or seen each other for 20 years. Just wondering.

  3. desert rose says:

    Memories can bring comfort to people who have lost a loved one. But, I too have a question.

    I was in an abusive church situation for 15 years, where the pastor sexually abused myself and other women. That part is actually easier to get over than the spiritual abuse and the way he brainwashed us. I had no outside contact with anyone. I find if difficult to read the KJV because I hear him. After I married, I wanted closure and went to him with my husband and pastor and he refused to open the door.

    Because of the traumatic experience I am going to counseling from 1984 to the present. I don’t have to go as often. The doctors call is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and because of the immense abuse, I now suffer from psedueo dementia. I don’t understand it since I went to christian counseling so long, but it has kept me from being able to work any longer because of my short term memory and my turning my words around backward.

    I have forgiven him and hold no grudges and in my case, I have dealt with the past and look forward to the future. It is difficult to have the dementia and the doctor said I needed “a long period of committed care.” Well my committed care, is home, with my husband and with God.

    So your comment – it is important to deal with a past if it is causing pain in your future. Your blog means a lot to me, for it is a contact with the outside world.

    Now… I rest in the Lord —Do you have a word of encouragement?

  4. Mart De Haan says:

    agapelife, I appreciate your sensitive conscience in wanting to do the right thing. So much depends on the nature of the wrong, whether addressing the problem would be done for the other person’s sake, and whether renewing communication is likely to be regarded as intrusive or helpful by the other person. If you have questions about this, I’d encourage you to seek the confidential advice of a wise person who might be able to talk through the specific issues with you.

  5. Mart De Haan says:

    desert rose,
    Ohhhhhh, … Makes me think of what Paul wrote in Romans 8– that in our broken world creation groans, we groan, and the Spirit groans in his prayers for us. I’m so glad that you’ve gotten help, and that your faith in the Lord is so real. I deeply respect your courage and value the comments and insights that seem to have been born out of your experience with God– in the fire.

  6. poohpity says:

    Thank you to all the bloggers who have shared your hurt. As human beings we all are hurt by others and then turn around and hurt someone else. I think that shows the importance of watching what we say and how we act because we never know what someone else is going through at any given time. It would be nice especially as followers of the God of love that we display His love because we know how it feels to be hurt, rejected and hated. We can use the pain we have felt to reach out to others who are going through sorrow, suffering, hurt, rejection and pain to be a place of safety and encouragement. Jesus turns that negative into a positive so we can reach others in His name with His love. So turn that hurt into empathy to touch someone and be kind to each other because we never know what someone is going through or has gone through. I know for myself that I say and do things that hurt others that is why I need the forgiveness of the Lord and He is the only one who can show me unconditional Love.

  7. Gale L. Jarvis says:

    Good Morning everyone, Mart, i believe very few people go through life without someone taking advantage of them, or causing them pain physically, mentally, or even spiritually.
    The Lord has helped me with a very important thought from Him, when Jesus was on the cross going through the physical, mental, and especially the spiritual pain, Jesus thoughts to the Father was forgive them they know not what they are doing.
    The Lord has shown me when a person is without God within them, THEY DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING.
    Even though as human beings we cannot believe someone cannot know what they are doing when they do these horable acts, but i believe God desires for me to believe the person does not know what they are doing, and God desires for me to care for them, pray for them, and continue to desire the very best for them, because i know God who lives within me loves them, and desires the very best for them, as God loved Saul, even though he was killing God’s children, even though it seemed Paul knew what he was doing when he was killing God’s children, he did not.
    Having these thoughts in my heart and mind, and desiring to live by them has helped me, and so i desire to pass them on. maybe someone can benifit from them.

  8. hal.fshr says:

    Mart:

    Thank for your thoughts. The challenge of keeping past, present and future in balance is formidable for each believer. By temperment and life experience we each have a tendency to live in what was, what is or what is to be. I think your article is helpful especially to those who have not use for the past. You have help us to see how memories can be a spring board for faith in the present. Thanks again.

  9. daisymarygoldr says:

    “Memories”- missing the pictures, Mart:( That’s OK for today…
    Human memory is a God-given gift and memories are precious- both the good and the bad ones; the joyful and the painful ones. (Deut 4:9-10) reminds us not to forget the things our eyes have seen through the years but to teach them to our children and our grandchildren and maybe even our great grandchildren(my personal prayerful hope:)

    We can learn a lot from past experiences, even the painful ones…as long as we do not allow them to develop into bitterness or resentment. Instead we can use them as ‘stepping stones’ or ‘learning tools’ and gain wisdom from them by turning them into something constructive. No one would ever want to be raised as I was by the strictest father, mother and grandmother in the world, yet there are no haunting memories. The ‘pain’ of the disciplining rod in my childhood has enabled me to ‘gain’ a healthy life free of emotional scars.

    Going down memory lane helps us to reflect on the wonder-working ways of God shepherding us through the valley of shadow and death, His miraculous provisions and His mighty deliverance…if He did it then He will certainly do it again. “God causes us to remember His wonderful works. How gracious and merciful is our LORD…He always remembers His covenant”.(Ps 111:4-5)!

  10. lilu1314h says:

    Today’s message has a great impact on me, cause this morning I’ve just thinking / praying for the past rejection that I’ve been going thru during my childhood.

    I have the same feeling with Murphy, God always let me learn along the way from the pain that I’ve suffered.

    After accepted Christ for the past 2 yrs, I’ve tried to live by faith but at the same time my emotion doesn’t seems to “tally” with the faith that I had. (my friend also comment that, she doesn’t understand how can I live by faith yet so emotionally disturbed?)

    Then I find myself suffered from another rejection from the church for not being followed up by anybody in my walk with the Lord. (is it necessary?) I always tell myself it’s ok, but it seems that deep down in my heart it is not so ok. Since then I had been rejecting myself, others even to God. Should I inform the church about my feeling? I’m just afraid other will go through the same situation as I do & paralyze the walk with the Lord.

  11. Becky M says:

    Thank you Mart. B Murphy, you wrote my thoughts simply and to the point. I wish I could write where I don’t go into too many details.

    agapelife;I am dealing with the same issues also. The fact is for many years, I find for myself, that this is every on going process.

    desert rose, I identify with abusive talk and brainwashing in my family and brainwashing for about 30 so years in a church.

    poohpity;As human beings we all are hurt by others and then turn around and hurt someone else.
    I followed in their footsteps and I was bitter for a long while afterward(after I was away from the church and my parents pasted away and my sisters got their lives in somewhat better ways thru years of theraphy and finally accepted me for who I am). Maybe we both had to go thru years of changes of facing ourselves to get to this point.

    Gale L. Jarvis;i believe very few people go through life without someone taking advantage of them, or causing them pain physically, mentally, or even spiritually. The Lord has helped me with a very important thought from Him, when Jesus was on the cross going through the physical, mental, and especially the spiritual pain, Jesus thoughts to the Father was forgive them they know not what they are doing. Even though as human beings we cannot believe someone cannot know what they are doing when they do these horable acts, but i believe God desires for me to believe the person does not know what they are doing, and God desires for me to care for them, pray for them, and continue to desire the very best for them, because i know God who lives within me loves them, and desires the very best for them—I could have copied your whole post because I identify with what you said.

    daisymarygoldr;We can learn a lot from past experiences, even the painful ones…as long as we do not allow them to develop into bitterness or resentment. Instead we can use them as ‘stepping stones’ or ‘learning tools’ and gain wisdom from them by turning them into something constructive. I too have learned this.
    For I was bitter and and angry.

    lilu1314h; Today’s message has a great impact on me, cause this morning I’ve just thinking / praying for the past rejection that I’ve been going thru during my childhood.

    It’s amazing how all of you have written my thoughts even better than I could have on this subject. Maybe in most of the threads on this blog. I’m blessed to be a member of the body of Christ! Thank you Jesus!

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