Sometimes I feel like I’m about to wake up. Then I go back to sleep.
For instance, when I hear Jesus say to his troubled disciples, “He who has seen me has seen the Father…Do you not believe that I am in the Father and the Father in me… [the day is coming when you will see that] I am in my Father, and you in Me, and I in you…(John 14:9, 10, 20).
Why do I hear that… think about it for a couple of minutes, and then start snoring so loudly that people around me wonder why I can’t be more considerate of them?
Part of me says it’s all about Father issues. We’ve talked about it in the past. Even the best of human father’s leave us with issues that we have to try and sort out for the rest of our lives. Absent, aloof, or abusive fathers multiply those problems exponentially. We don’t even have to wake up to see how messed up we are.
Another part of me says it’s all about family politics. We’ve talked about that too. Way too many of us on the right, left, and in the middle, have Father issues that leave us fighting about whose in control of our Mother. It’s so natural that we do it in our sleep.
And yet sometimes… sometimes I dream about hearing news that is so good it almost makes me want to get up and face the day. Sometimes I hear the one we call Teacher say things that make it sound like, in our waking moments, Peter, John, and Mary had nothing over us. For a moment I even wonder whether their Teacher and Friend is closer to me/us than he was with them… while he was with them.
Sometimes I almost wake up to a Father whose Son said to those who had started to believe in him, “He who has seen me has seen the Father…Do you not believe that I am in the Father and the Father in me… [the day is coming when you will see that] I am in my Father, and you in Me, and I in you…”
If you have some time, wish you would talk me down the road a bit. Am having a hard time keeping my eyes open…
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