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A Sleepless Night

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20 years had passed since Jacob left home, on the run for lying his way into more than his share of the family inheritance. Now he was coming back, with 2 wives, 12, children and large herds of animals.

As the sun set, Jacob would once again try to fall asleep with his head full of worries. Some things hadn’t changed. He was still afraid of being killed by the twin he had defrauded so many years earlier.

But now, as he struggled with his fears, Jacob found himself wrestling with mysterious man who had shown up in his darkness. This was no ordinary man. By the time the sun came up Jacob was convinced that he had wrestled with God and survived. As reminders of this night he came away with a new name– and a limp. (Gen 32:24-31).

From this day forward he would no longer be known as Jacob (lit heel-grabber and supplanter). Now his name would be Israel (i.e. God struggler). According to the one with whom Jacob struggled, this new name would be a reminder that Jacob had struggled with man and God—and prevailed.

But how could a mere mortal struggle with God and walk away with nothing more than a new name and a limp?

Was this just about Jacob and his role in the story of God’s plan of rescue?  Or could his wrestling match with God– and his sleepless night– be a picture of how our Creator condescends to us in our darkness to let all of us struggle with him, before giving us a blessing, and our own distinctive “limp”, that reminds us of who we are—and who he is…


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  1. SFDBWV says:

    The stories and characters in Scripture are never *just* about them or that moment, these stories have depth that are almost limitless and revealed by the Author of Scripture when it is that we are ready to understand them and able to be taught from them.

    Jacob was an interesting character and seemed to be wrestling with himself all of his life. Cowardly in some respects and yet bold in others. It always made me grimace to read that though he didn’t love Leah he still kept having sex with her and God blessed *her* for it.

    Whereas his father and grandfather were guilty of hiding behind a woman’s skirt, Jacob used a great many youthful years in the pursuit of his favored wife and made no attempt to hide the fact that he also favored her children over her sisters.

    Now then how like this less than admirable character are we?

    What keeps us up at night, or fills our sleep with trembling and fear or better said with *frustrations* and anxieties?

    If any of you have ever had an epiphany or a dream that you believed God was involved in, then every day and every night you hunger for more. You find that you search your dreams and look all day for God to open your eyes and reveal some moment of Himself in relation to your circumstances in life.

    Like a person in peril looking over the horizon for rescue to come.

    It is written that Jacob would not let go of the man with whom he wrestled until he received a blessing from him. (Genesis 32:26)

    We see this same event played out a little differently many years later when the woman with the issue of blood pushed through a crowd of people believing if she could just touch the hem of Jesus’ garment she would be healed. (Matthew 9:21 Mark 5:28 Luke 8:44, 47)

    What is it God gives us to wrestle with and how we struggle through it is where the core of this discussion is.

    Steve

  2. swwagner says:

    Looking back in my life at the wrestling matches I have had with God is very comforting because they marked significant spiritual growth. They are the “touches of God” that let me know that I belong to Him. The “limps” or “thorns in the flesh” that are left behind are difficult to live with at times, but I am friends with them now and value their marks on my life.

    As we speak, I am in a struggle with God concerning living peacefully with others. I covet your prayers as God presses on my heart to make changes that I do not understand. This discussion could not have come at a better time!

  3. remarutho says:

    Good Morning BTA Friends –

    The sleepless night Jacob spent wrestling the angel I take to be literal – and it seems to me it is in those vulnerable times (3 a.m. prayer-call) when we sense our fragile humanity that we have a non-physical spiritual struggle with God.

    God permits us to “wrestle” with his Presence. Job did so. All the prophets encountered God’s Presence as well, it seems to me. God’s super-human strength is mightily restrained as he allows us to exhaust our strength in his loving grasp.

    Mart, you asked:
    “But how could a mere mortal struggle with God and walk away with nothing more than a new name and a limp?”

    It seems to me the Lord would not have it any other way. Jacob/Israel came out of the struggle and named the place Penuel (Face of God) because he had seen the face of God and had lived. (Gen 32:31) The new name and the physical change are surely signs that the old trickster (Jacob) had become God’s man (Israel) body, mind and spirit.

    Yours,
    Maru

  4. remarutho says:

    My Genesis reference should be: Genesis 32:30, 31.

  5. SFDBWV says:

    Sorry to inject a comment unconnected to the topic, but there is an amazing story on CNN video about a woman who bought a used new version of the Bible in a book store only to discover an essay she wrote 65 years earlier folded in the pages. The original essay that she had written in her own hand.

    Too cool.

    Steve

  6. poohpity says:

    It is really sad that not many Christians come to the point of even wrestling with God they still insist on doing things their way and for their own will to be done. Before Jacob was even born God told Rebekah their fate Gen 25:22-23 NLT, rather than letting God work out the details Rebekah and Jacob took matters into their own hands and that was how Jacob seemed to live His life up to the point of wrestling with God. How many of us have yet to trust God to do things for us because being in control is the foremost action in one’s life?

    When a swimmer is drowning they thrash all about and the rescuer stands back and allows them to go under in unconsciousness before they attempt the save. That is so the drowning person does not pull them both down and there is no fight left so the rescuer can jump in and save.

    After we learn of the great love the Lord has for us and accept that gift some go on doing things in their own strength never coming to the point of letting go of control for the Lord to act. Never learning the difference in God’s Will and what is human will.

    Saul/Paul, before he wrestled with God, was a Pharisee of the strictest sect after he meant the blinding light of God he let go of doing things his way and took three years to understand how all that he learned in scriptures could be applied to Jesus. He was changed from doing things in the flesh to doing things unto the Spirit.

    I know I am still doing things my way when it produces anger, hostility, resentment, no rest, malice and hatred rather than peace, joy, kindness, love, gentleness, self control and patience. The limp may look like heartburn, heart attacks, stress, panic attacks, depression, rage, domineering, etc..

    I seem to wrestle with God in one area then no sooner do I turn that over that there is another area I have to wrestle Him for. The sad part is I know better and still do it.

  7. poohpity says:

    “met not “meant”!!

  8. oneg2dblu says:

    steve… interesting points all. The issue of blood is a condition the whole words suffers from until they can see that His Blood was shed for them and yet they must still in faith reach out to Him and be healed.

    Yes, we all wrestle with our demons, the lust of the eye, the greed in our hearts, our self adoration of the part we like to see (pride), or self medication if we don’t like what we see, (addiiction).

    If it were a “one touch heals all” of our conditions at once that would be really great, but the reality is more like what others here have mentioned, just as you are healed of one thing, another one quickly pops up.

    Truth is, it is the constant contact, not the once having touched, that provides for us he best medicine.
    Gary

  9. remarutho says:

    Dear All –

    Mart, you wrote:
    “But now, as he struggled with his fears, Jacob found himself wrestling with mysterious man who had shown up in his darkness. This was no ordinary man. By the time the sun came up Jacob was convinced that he had wrestled with God and survived.”

    I suppose we can be lulled into believing that an angel is a wispy, soft-spoken agent of heaven. But, it seems to me a close reading of the Scriptures on a regular basis will dispel that unfortunate idea. Angels are powerful. Sometime earlier, Jacob was awed to see the angels coming and going on the heavenly stairway or ladder (at Bethel). (Gen 28:10-17) Perhaps he thought God was “on his side” or that he was “favored.” This wrestling match is so much more intimate and soul-wrenching than his previous vision.

    Jacob rises and goes ahead of his family and faces Esau man to man. (Gen 33:1, 2, 3) Can it be that in that sleepless night he has stopped holding the Lord at a distance and has allowed the Creator God to take up residence in his very heart?

    Can such a transformation make a cowardly trickster into a courageous witness of God’s greatness?

    Maru

  10. BruceC says:

    I like all others here have had my times of wrestling with the Lord. I always lose. But in His grace I am not destroyed. Interesting how the new name of Israel means
    God struggler ….. and that is exactly what the nation of Israel continued to do right up to Messiah; and even to this very day. And that is what we do until we are home with Him.
    If we question God or even get upset with Him or maybe entertain some doubts; He does not give us the crushing defeat we deserve. We likely get tossed around a bit, but he allows us to get through it and is there with us in it.

    BruceC
    Soli Deo Gloria!

  11. swwagner says:

    BruceC

    I completely agree with your statement about God not crushing us but allowing us to get through it and is there with us in it. He doesn’t let us just shrug things off either…we will deal with our sins face to face and life can be pretty miserable until we do.

  12. bubbles says:

    Mart, thank you for your work on this site. Your thoughts are appreciated very much. This must take time for you to do, so thank you for giving of yourself and your time.

    I am thankful that God has not crushed me the many, many times that I have deserved it. I am thankful for his patience and mercy and unfailing love. Thank God that our salvation rests in the finished work of Christ and not in works that we do. Thank God for the rest He gives us in that assurance. Knowing that I am safe in His hand helps me sleep at night.

  13. SFDBWV says:

    Revelation 2:17 tells me there at the end I am given a new name. Revelation 5:6 tells me that Jesus still bears His wounds.
    Revelation 19:12 tells me Jesus is given a new name

    The story of Jacob wrestling with God leaves Jacob with a new name and a wound for it to remind him of it.

    The full and true story of my life known only to God will produce in the end a new name for me as it did Jacob, but will I still suffer scars and wounds at that time?

    Or are those limps and wounds of our struggles transformed into a more perfect character for us to bear?

    Seeing that Christ bears the wounds for all.

    Steve

  14. remarutho says:

    Good Morning Mart & Friends –

    Mart, you asked:
    “…could his wrestling match with God– and his sleepless night– be a picture of how our Creator condescends to us in our darkness to let all of us struggle with him, before giving us a blessing, and our own distinctive “limp”, that reminds us of who we are—and who he is…”

    Jesus told his disciples Luke 14:27. Jesus of Nazareth is our condescending Creator God in flesh. The apostle Paul also was given a true struggle with the Lord: Great joy in serving and painful consequences and conditions to deal with – such as the “thorn in the side,” along with the beatings and stoning and shipwrecks.

    The writer of the letter to the Hebrews says: “My child, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord, or lose heart when you are punished by him; for the Lord disciplines those whom he loves, and chastises every child whom he accepts.” (Hebrews 12:5, 6)

    Surely we have some evidence that the dark, sleepless night has something to do with the mystery of God’s holiness in his beloved son or daughter. What we experience, we experience in God’s loving grip, it seems to me.

    Maru

  15. poohpity says:

    It seems in the time of John writing about the new names when dealing with the heart of the believers was addressing the lenient believer who had let syncretism sneak in with their beliefs of God. Not sure but in those times to get into a banquet rather than having a engraved invitation as we do now they had stones with names engraved on them as their means of signifying they were on the list of the elite who are welcomed into the banquet since the bread from heaven was being served. That manna seems to be Jesus the bread from heaven as he referred to himself in John 6:48-51.

    I think after believing in the love and mercy we were shown by Jesus at that point we are given a new name. In the other parts of scripture where people are given new names(i.e.Abram/Abraham; Sarai/Sarah Jacob/Israel) Gen 17:5,15 it shows a change in their character. We have gone from people named sinners to saints.

    These people all seemed to have come to the point where as Mart said, “that reminds us of who we are—and who he is…” When we are humbled to recognize that God is God and we are not then we can allow Him access to our wills, lives, dreams and desires to be of one accord with God which changes our character hence a new name.

  16. poohpity says:

    At our physical birth we are given names so it seems fit at the time of being born again we get a new name to go with our new life.

  17. oneg2dblu says:

    Yeah we go from being dead in our worldly spirit, to becoming alive again, or spirit filled by God.
    From being a non-fruit producing wild branch, once on our own, to one that can now produce fruit because it is connected, or grafted in, the true fruit producing living vine.
    But, scripture clearly says, that is not the whole story, we will be cut off and thrown into the fire if we do not produce good fruit.
    So, it becomes more than just being grafted in, or born again, but more about being constantly pruned, remaining attached, and producing fruit which allows us to retain our position on the vine for His purpose.
    To change us from being unproductive or dead, into an alive again and productive part of this new life, constantly connected to the the root, as a grafted in branch, a branch which will produce fruit, or it will be cut off.
    When we are constantly being fed by the true root, the word of God, and in a constant relationship with the true vine Jesus Christ, not just connected to a religion, we remain there as then purpose filled, productive, good fruit bearing branches, under constant discipline and growing.
    If not…?

  18. swwagner says:

    I agree that we shall be know by our fruit. However, I wonder who it is that will know us by our fruit? Will God know us by our fruit since only He can see our hearts and know our circumstances? Or will the church congregation, the community, or our friends and family know us by our fruit since they can only see our outer lives? I would say there is a balance to be maintained here.
    It is a dreadful thing if we fall into the trap of pleasing people and allowing them to be the only judge of our fruit…because then, we start making sure that our outward lives look good instead of concentrating on relationship with God, the true judge.

  19. oneg2dblu says:

    swagner… So, you are saying outwardly we should not change for that may become a trap of pleasing people only?

    Interesting…

    I thought if the outer life looks evil and produces bad fruit, that any real discerning Christian ought to be able to judge for themselves, whether a person appears as actually walking in the flesh or the spirit.

    Or do we use some other standard for our discernment?

    If the outer life changes and becomes more Christ-like, and the fruit it bears is seen as good even by the rest of the ever darkening world, then who will have any real grounds to stand on if they try to judge one as being evil?

    Because when a life is lived and displayed as having the Fruit of the Spirit, there really is no law against such things.

    There must be some evidence in the natural as well when the Holy Spirit is awakened, directing, and living within.

    Or, how do we then test which spirit is working within others?
    Gary

  20. poohpity says:

    When we want to please God one really could care less what others see but it will be evident. No one will have to tell anyone how spirit filled they are nor will they look at the spiritual condition of others. All because they trust God to work in everyone’s life.

  21. swwagner says:

    oneg2dblu and poohpity:
    I agree with all you say. Unbelievers and believers alike should be able to tell who we belong too from our outward life…there will be noticeable change inwardly and outwardly as we wrestle with God and then become transformed by His truths. If we keep our eyes on the Lord, the rest falls into place.

    God deals with us as individuals so that we can relax in His love, grow in His grace, and be a light to a dark world…all for His glory.

    “On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand…all other ground is sinking sand.”

  22. oneg2dblu says:

    swagner… Amen to that!
    Inward work produces outward change.
    The Lord did not give us His Light to be hidden under a bowl but to be put on a lampstand that it should light the whole world.
    Gary

  23. fadingman says:

    Various somewhat disorganized thoughts…

    I wonder why Jacob wrestled with God in the first place. There’s no description of the events leading up to the altercation. Did God start the fight or did Jacob? (It does say God was the one wrestling with him, not the other way around. So I imagine God suddenly coming out of the darkness and accosting a surprised Jacob for no apparent reason.)

    It’s obvious Jacob wasn’t aware who his Opponent was at first. What did he hope to get out of the wrestling match? Was he fighting to escape with his life, or was it to show this unknown person he picked a fight with the wrong man? (I think the latter.)

    God allowed Jacob to think he was winning most of the night, until close to dawn when a simple touch granted him blessed disillusionment. And yet, Jacob continued to wrestle: he wouldn’t let go until he received a blessing.

    In the end, Jacob recognized God could have snuffed out his life at any time (vs. 30). He recognized he prevailed not because he was stronger, but because of God’s favor.

    I wonder if Jacob ever looked back and thought, “That was foolish! Why couldn’t I see who that Man was? I could have been killed!” And yet good came out of it.

    Andrew

  24. poohpity says:

    What was Jacob doing right before the Man appeared? Was he taking matters into his own hands again because of his guilty conscience rather than asking God for help?

  25. poohpity says:

    Could it have been a battle of wills trading Jacobs’/Israels’ will for Gods’ but it had to be done in a way that Jacob could finally understand? A physical battle for a spiritual victory? The limp would be a constant reminder as well as the name change.

  26. foreverblessed says:

    The positive thing about this wrestling is this that Jacob is a great example for us all, in that he showed how we should ask for a blessing from God!
    seek, ask, knock
    knock on heavens door
    Without wavering, so with faith,
    we can believe that we are children of God, if we believe in Jesus that He paid for our sins.

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